The fuse broke for a reason.

Virgil! You once told me that everything had a pupose, even my descent into inferno. I believe you now. Maybe because, I found the reason why I snapped.

I had too much hatred. I held too deep a grudge. I clung too tightly to bitter memories. I fell back too often on my pride and prejudice. I've let crippled myself by fefusing to let go. I was cursed by my own inability to rise from the trauma.

I thought I've learned by now...but now I see that my pride and anger prevented me from doing that.

i was too stubborn. I didn't let go. i shut myself out. I was too proud. I kept passing the blame. i kept covincing myself that I was the victim. Now I realize that i caused my own suffering.

i was too proud...too stubborn...now as I look back...she may be right...I was just too proud to heed her...

God has delivered me. He made me snap. He made me lose that poison in my blood. that hatred, that grudge, that prejudice, because i couldn't do it on my own...

It's only now, when i've taken off the veil of anger and pride, that i see my own faults. i let my emotions degrade me further. It made me the opposite of what i really am. I became closed-mided, prejudiced and proud. And i've suffered because of that. because of that suffering, i became angrier...i became my own persecutor.....

God saved me...Virgil..., you were right. I see that now...there's no anger and hate covering my eyes now...

can I still right my wrongs? maybe it's too late...my deeds were done. i don't expect to be forgiven...

At least now, i hope, I am free from my self-imposed exile...